I want comfort

I just want to be held and comforted and told that everything will be okay. By someone. I barely ever got that. I really like this guy from my class who doesn't give a shit about me and it's making it so much worse, i don't want anything freaky I just want him to hug me tightly. I wanna talk to him. I'm so sad inside and I just want to be to feel ok without having to rely on self harm and all that stuff. It's driving me crazy how touch starved i am. I cry myself to sleep because of it, almost every night. I cry every day. I just want a hug.