Hypersexuality and emophilia suck.

I fucking hate it. I am in a relationship with a loving boyfriend. He is the best person in the world. But I keep getting crushes on people. I remember this one girl named Maria said my eyes were beautiful and I fell head over heals for her. WHILE I WAS DATING DAMIEN. It made me feel gross. And when I got home, I was having fantasy about her. I wanted to kill myself because I felt like I was cheating on my boyfriend just by having those thoughts. I cried a lot. I just wish I was normal.