i need help on stopping

background info: i started about a year ago and was doing deep cuts on my wrist, then i got found out and was clean for about 5-6 months, and then occasionally i just cut my fingertips, i mainly do it because i feel ugky and that stuff, and i did it yesterday. some other information: fatal to the flesh dosent help because i need the feeling of being hurt.

edits: i’m not doing as bad cuts, just enough to draw blood