Nearly relapsed

Last time I cut was on Christmas Eve and until now I haven’t had many sh thoughts, but today I decided to check my social media and found nothing. I had no notifications from anyone trying to message me, which isn’t new it just hurts each time I see it, and the last time I check was around a month ago. So because of this I then got the reminder that I don’t have friends. It just hurts, the fact that no body at all has contacted me in more than a month.

Side note: I have messaged people in the past month but only 2 people and both of those conversations were started by me and they ended quickly because the other person had no input to the conversation, just seeming like they wanted to stop messaging me.