How?

How do i quit? Ive been in the same circle ever since i was 10.

I dont sh anymore just bc i wanna see blood or i wanna punish myself, or i wanna be in pain. I do it cause im used to it, like a routine maybe?

I can quit randomly for months and then i always start again for no reason at all, i can never fully quit no matter how hard i try and i wanna know how to FULLY quit.

(also english isn't my first language so pls dont come for me keyboard warriors im so sorry 🙏😞)

Maybe its also because i dont see a reason to quit, i dont see sh as a bad thing.