Im thinking of ending my 8 months relationship, but im scared I'll regret it later, cause i do love him, but its just too much for me.

Im 18F and I've been together with my boyfriend 18M for 8 months now, at the beginning it was amazing for 4 or 5 months, but now it feels too much, he tends to get overprotective due to his past, overly jealous due to his past, friends say his too controlling also.

I've been thinking of ending it for a week or so now, but im scared I'll regret it, cause hes the first guy to make me feel this safe and happy, first guy that is nice and doesn't use me, but due to my really bad mental health and lack of communication as he says , its hard.

I suffer from depressed and many more mental illnesses, due to them i tend to isolate myself and sometimes i feel like i hate him even, tho i know i dont, he tries to help, but i know all i do is worry him and dont give the love he deserves, he's quite clingy, wants to know what im doing, where i am, with who i am , at all times.

We doing long distance now and i tend to just forget to update him , most times he gets mad and we argue a lot about it. I love him, but i feel like being in a relationship is not the best for my mental health, but im scared I'll regret breaking up if i do, or that I'll hurt him. Im stuck right now, so if anyone have any advice, or been in familiar situation, it would help a lot .

TL;DR I think being in a relationship is too hard for me, i love him but most time he effect me negative, even tho he doesn't mean it, but its too much and too hard for me, im just scared I'll regret ending it.