Struggling bad

Our boy/girl twins are 4months and my marriage is a wreck. I feel so angry at my husband all the time because I’m overstimulated. We argue all the time. Our twins cry all the time colicky and we both take shifts but we constantly want a break from the kids but also feel guilty about wanting a break. It’s like we don’t agree on anything anymore and everything he does makes me mad. He’s a great father and does everything he can for them but it’s just our marriage that has taken a big hit. I hate being alone with them because when they both cry at the same time I feel so helpless but he doesn’t let it get to him and it’s almost as if I have this jealousy that he handles them easier and he gets to go to work and gets a break. This is more of a rant post but I long for the days they are more independent. I feel so bad for saying this but I hate sitting here all day with them not even able to go grab food without worrying about them in the other room