I know my mother doesn’t love all of me
I’m a bisexual woman. I’ve known I’ve liked women for years now, and have tried to come out to my mother a few times, each with similar results. The first time I tried, she got uncomfortable and very quiet. When I asked her if she would still love me if I was gay, she said ‘that’s between you and god.’ When I brought the incident up a few months ago, she said that I should have known that she would still love me, that THAT was never in question, but that it’s god that I need to be right with. When we got to talking about it again later on, I asked if she would be uncomfortable if I dated a woman. She said that it wouldn’t matter, and that if god wanted to then ‘he would fix whatever needed to be fixed.’ I know at this point that there’s nothing I can do to change how she sees it, but it feels awful knowing that there’s a part of me that my mom won’t ever accept.