Any moms in here?

I’m a first time mom (baby due in a few weeks) and I’m considering getting a CCL for personal protection. I will be home alone with my baby a lot and I have a lot of anxiety about it. My husband has a couple of shotguns that we’ve used at the range, and I find them to be way too heavy and difficult to maneuver.

I’m posting here because all the “moms who carry guns” groups I’ve found are heavily conservative leaning and I can’t stand to commune with those people. I want to hear from parents similar to me who are carrying to protect themselves and their babies. I definitely need something smaller, but it makes me nervous to have a gun in the presence of my child. I’d love to get some input on what model might be right for me, advice on carrying a gun while in the presence of kids/babies, and just get an open discussion going.