Anybody start to find peace after rejecting the world?

Honestly was always conflicted about feeling like an alien. Something happened in the past year where I realized I didn't love anything or anyone in this world. With that the idea of assimilating and leading a normal life kinda died. I should be mourning this, but.....I feel fine. I'm not elated or anything, but my desires kinda vanished. Love, family, financial success, being right in a conversation, being understood. None of it matters. Just pay me and let me disappear. I don't feel like I need to put on a show anymore.