I just need to rant so I don't cry

I’m so beyond frustrated at my meat suit. I just want to poop like a normal human and have realized, I never have been “normal” I’ve been a once a week girly since childhood. I vaguely remember having to get suppositories, my gma (she raised me) making me drink cranberry juice daily and not ONCE did anyone take me to a damn dr to figure out why. 

Now I’m in my 40s and miserable because it’s just gotten worse. I have tried everything, increase fiber doesn’t work, Miralax just makes me pee a lot, Mag citrate just makes me puke. Suppositories get a few rabbit pellets out then nothing else and that’s if it actually works. 

I went to a new dr because the gatekeeper the GI docs which oh yeah by the way the ones i saw in the past were no help. 

at the end of 2023 I had a switch to just pooping liquid and ended up losing like around 50lbs. 

Anyway went to the new dr in November because over the summer it had gotten a lot worse. I just feel constant pressure in my guts. New doc doesn’t do any testing just diagnoses me with hEDS, IBS mixed (a joke it’s rarely its-d) and Raynaud’s. 

Gives me a medication Dicyclomine (Bentyl which from my experience there’s nothing happening in my guts. Quiet as a church in there. So I haven’t taken it cause it can cause constipation which I’m already dealing with.

I’m supposed to see him again next friday and I’m just at my wits end. I’m uncomfortable but not in pain. I never even get the urge to poop. 

I hate this so much and don’t know what to do anymore. I’m scared it’s something not being caught which i guess is valid given lack of testing beside blood work that shows NOTHING.