Noro feeling inevitable this season?

I have been struggling with a mild case of emetophobia my whole life, but it got really bad after I tu* for the first time in over 10 years a few months ago. My mom has said that I never got it as a kid, but I am struggling so bad this year. I usually get a cold/the flu every year, but this year, I feel like Noro is the only thing on my mind. I haven't thought about noro before this year, probably due to it being all over social media.

What I am trying to say is that I feel like I am going to get it this year. Even though I am very careful not to touch my face and wash my hands all the time, it just feels inevitable.

Any one else feel like this? Also feel like I am jinxing myself writing this, and that I am definitely going to get it. I am scared to leave my house, even just for a walk because I am afraid I'll tu* when I am out. I am constantly n* or have some stomach discomfort... Anyone in the same boat or could bring me some perspective. I live in London, and work in a shop once a day. Also terrified to get ready made food incase those preparing it had noro or something.

Sorry for the rambling. I'm just having a really hard time