I'm lost

Hello, I'm Steffe. I am wondering why everyone is laughing at me for no reason. A few years ago some kids made fun of me for losing my uncle and grandma. I felt sad but they didn't care. After that I was wondering why they would say that. A few years went by and when I asked people for directions they just laugh at me for some reason. Some time ago I liked this girl I really liked back the. After awhile I built the courage to ask her out but... She just straight up laughed at me with no reason whatsoever. Some time went by and I faced these annoying people who would threaten to stab me, again with no reason to it.

At this time I got rejected 9 times. Got knocked out many times and feel like I'm not worth anymore. I need life advice. Thank you!