I'm not alive, I'm just existing at this point

So I'm a 3rd year student in one of the better south campus colleges, and idk I just can't seem to get a hold of myself.

I just don't feel good lately. Had a very fucked up situationship, and I'm trying to move on from that, sitting for placements rn and all I'm getting is rejections, I'll be graduating in 5 months and idk what to do. Gave CAT this year, worked so fucking hard for 6 months only to get a below average percentile. Lately I've started to lose people around me, losing friends with every passing day, I don't feel like talking to anybody. Bhot zada emotional breakdown hota h. Idk what to do. I've struggled with mental health issues in the past and it's haunting me again.