broke the side of my right foot, really worried about my mental health
this is pretty much a venting post. went to a mosh pit for the xyz time and fell all by myself, got up, felt pain for a bit but nothing excruciating, and kept going for a while. the next day, i went for a walk for about 2-3 hours. as it did hurt and i was limping a bit, i went to get it scanned the next day. little did i know, i got the "dancer's fracture", the trauma on the bone that leads to the pinky toe. dude looked me dead in the eye and told me i'm gonna be in a cast for six weeks. six. fucking. weeks. i acted like an asshole, laughed it off as he was putting the cast on, as i thought he was joking. "why the fuck were you not wearing marten's in the mosh?" i guess i really am stupid. this is my second day of "healing", as i'm sure as fuck it's not going ever to be the same. i'm very concerned if i will be able to ever mosh, run, jump, play basketball or whatever, as i'm a pretty active dude and six weeks in isolation sounds worse than putting a bullet in my head, unironically speaking. doc even said that "if it doesn't heal properly they'll have to perform a surgery". the thing is, i absolutely loathe myself for reasons not important, and shit like this makes me fear that everything will just go downhill from here. i never broke anything as i'm careful in pretty much everything i do. all of this sounds like a load of nonsense to me, at one point it really felt like i was gonna wake up from an awful dream. i will gain weight because i'm imprisoned here in my bed, sweating and barely standing while going to toilet, and gaining weight is THE most traumatic thing for me, and now i can't escape it. i weight 68kg (male) and about 193cm in height.
before you go about how dramatic i am, i'd like you just to remember how it was for you as i'm sure you broke something since you're here, and i'm not trying to sound rude by saying this. i just want my life to be the same after all of this, even though i'm pretty sure nothing will be looked at from the same perspective from now on.
guys, if you could, tell me your experience with the healing process, and if you ever had thoughts similar to mine. thank you so much in advance, i appreciate all the answers.