I just need someone to tell me screen time is okay right now

Flagging this for content warning due to death talk.

My mom, my best friend in the entire world, is currently at the end of her life due to cancer. She’s expected to pass any day now. I am a mess. She was so excited to be a grandma and honestly never had the chance because she got diagnosed with cancer the day I had my baby and immediately started chemo which severely weakened her. Because of this I’ve been letting my 15 month old watch ms Rachel more than usual and on top of my grieving now I feel guilty about letting her have so much screen time. Twice today we’ve laid in bed for an hour each time and just cuddled and watched tv because I can’t find the energy to do anything right now. She loves laying in our bed and watching Ms Rachel so I know she’s happy Im just so fucking sad. I know the pain won’t hurt so bad as time goes on but right now this feels like the end of the world for me. I am thankful that I do have a village that reaches out and supports me when my husband is at work but I just want to be alone with my daughter…she’s really the only thing keeping me going right now.

So please, just tell me the screen time is okay and tell me something cute that your baby did today that made you smile

ETA- thank you all for your kind words ❤️ this is truly the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through and reading all of these responses and cute things your kids have done today has helped me get through the evening