Got offered 15k-20k weekly to be a Toy Boy

Honestly don't have any idea which Sub would this be appropriate, but since I'm a struggling young adult, I think I'll ask for advice here.

23M, throwaway account. Currently, I am in the midst of desperation even if it's Christmas, nawalan ako ng work and super hirap maka-recover. Nag-aaply apply uli ako sa mga BPO and I'm currently studying din, ako gumagastos sa tuition ko. Ever since, lapitin ako talaga ng mga sugar mom at mga gay, kasi somewhat maitsura naman ako. I've just turned 23 and medyo mas nag-mature na katawan and face ko so mas lalong dumami yung mga lumalapit. Recently, may nag-offer sa akin maging Boy Toy niya ako for 15k to 20k weekly allowance, tapos yung isang kaibigan niya willing ako bigyan ng 20k through video request lang na naka-mask naman. I've said no multiple times, pero insisting yung mga nag-ooffer. It's very painful for me to think that I'm considering it. Pero kahit walang wala ko, feeling ko hindi ko talaga kaya.

For those people na binenta yung dignidad to make ends meet, I now understand your point of view, pero paano? How did you cope up with it? If maibabalik ba yung panahon, would you do things differently?

Ano ba 'tong situation ko? Kaya ko naman mag-trabaho eh, pero knowing na there's a lot of people earning millions from nudity nowadays, I'm starting to be hopeless sa matuwid na direksyon. I'm really lost.