struggling

i had my abortion over the weekend. i really did not want to do it, but i felt it was the right choice given the unstable relationship im in. the bleeding afterwards is very triggering to me because its a constant reminder of what i lost. does anyone else feel this way?

i have been having so many up and downs and getting so emotional bc a part of me really wanted to keep, but seeing the blood of the aftermath feels so dirty, it feels like a slap in my face…. 😭