Moment of weakness

I was medboarded out the army march 15 2024. Same month me and my girl broke up. Convinced I had moved on time goes and I started school. In the same month I started school I bought a house and new car. 25 civic (Only got the car to rm her cus she had the same car; dumb ik w.e). Got divorced in nov 24 from a prior prior relationship. I should’ve went thru with the paperwork a long time ago

Now I stay in a 3 bed 2 bath house and ive never been lonelier in my life lol. I dont have friends that arent thousands of miles away, the people I have class with in college are weird. Im doing ok financially but man it just feels like with the things I’ve accomplished at 23 I should be happier.

I dont have family where I live they’re thousands of miles away too. I live near my daughter but me and her mom share 1 week on 1 week off and its not my week. So this house is as quiet as if no one lived here.

The video games I normally play I dont wanna play. I cant find any half decent anime I havent alrdy seen. I don’t work so I cant drown myself in more work. School is going as it supposed to but honestly im probably dropping out after this semester.

I miss the old days a lot but I also like my freedom these days. Idek what I want but it just feels like too much. I didn’t want to get out the army; I wanted to reclass but with my injury I had no choice. I wanted to travel more see more things make more friends but I feel stagnant in life like before I joined.

Im making this post just to vent cus I have no one to tlk to thats all. This is not benefit related so I apologize.