Why isn’t cannabis-induced psychosis talked about more?
So I’m currently 21, and I’ve been an occasional cannabis smoker since I was 16. Never had any major issues, however I did have two unpleasant experiences where I had just smoked too much and felt sick. A couple months ago, I tried edibles for the first time. I definitely got super high off of those, but I had a good time nonetheless.
Now, the last time I had an edible (the same dosage as I had been taking), it gave me the actual most horrifying experience I’ve ever had in my life. I was with a group of friends, and it all started out fine. Was feeling high, got myself some snacks to munch on, the usual. As time passed though, I got increasingly paranoid that I didn’t belong within my group of friends, that I was an outcast in some way and that they were only friends with me because they pitied me. These negative thoughts were really starting to bug me, so I excused myself and went to my bedroom (the friend function was at my apartment).
It’s important to mention that I also have a pet cat, I absolutely adore her. She followed me to my room when I excused myself and laid on my bed with me for a bit. At one point, we were staring at each other, and I felt like I had this psychic connection to her and that I could communicate with her through this connection. So I was “telepathically” telling her how good of a cat she is, etc, etc, and then suddenly I got this feeling of dread. My cat was telling me that she knows she’s a good cat, and that I exist to serve her, and all this narcissistic shit. I genuinely saw evil in her eyes, and in that moment I swear I felt the presence of a demon in her. Now, because we were telepathically connected and she could read my thoughts, the demon that had possessed her knew that I had spotted it. And because I had found it, it was now going to kill me.
This sounds absolutely ridiculous, but in short, I truly believed that my cat was possessed by a demon that was going to kill me. The demon was still telepathically connected to me too, so it was sending all of these horrifying images and thoughts into my mind, and I had zero control over it. I felt like I was actually losing my mind, and that I was going to die that night. The demon told me that it was going to drag me down to hell with it, and I’d burn for eternity.
I laid in the fetal position for like 2 hours, unable to force myself to sleep it off due to the intense thoughts. Thankfully, my roommate came to check on me and comforted me for the rest of the trip. She also removed the cat from my room and kept the door closed to prevent her from coming back in and sending me into another spiral.
I look back at this and laugh now because of its absurdity, but in the moment, it was absolutely traumatizing. When I was in this state of delusion, I was aware that the thoughts I was having were ridiculous- but I BELIEVED them. They were reality to me. But because I was aware of how dumb they were (my cat plotting to kill me), it freaked me out even more because I knew that I was going insane and I was scared I’ve never return back to normal.
I’ve quit all cannabis products since then, and I’m wondering if anyone else has had crazy shit like this happen to them due to weed products??