I feel sorry for my husband

Seven months PP today and man, the PPD just doesn’t let up ever huh? My husband and I had a good, honest conversation last night about our relationship and my insecurities. I have PTSD from childhood and on top of that, PTSD from my previous relationship and PPD is just the icing on the cake. I feel like I’ve made very little progress. I worry that it’s too much for my husband sometimes, even though he says he knows I’m trying my best and that’s all he cares about. I swear this man couldn’t be anymore perfect than he already is and I just feel so bad that he has to pick up after me again and again, especially when I’m having a breakdown. I know I can’t help it, hormones and all that, but I feel so helpless. I don’t know how to express my gratitude to him. F PPD man, I’m so over this.