Found the elder sister I never knew I needed, and she saved me without even realizing it

In the beginning, we hardly spoke, partly because I wasn’t in the right headspace and partly due to our nearly 12-year age gap. But despite that, getting to know her turned out to be one of the best things that ever happened to me. I have an elder sister now!

She is hands down the most amazing person I know, and even with a decade-plus between us, we connect effortlessly

She is like this sphere of positive energy and everything about her is awesome. She is the kindest and most empathetic human I know. I honestly hit a jackpot. Tbh i never had a positive female figure in my life, not in the form of a mother or teachers or any other way, some friends here and there but you know kids are very cruel regardless of gender so those relationships didn't end really well

I remember when I was 5yo in 1st grade, I had this teacher who was extremely obese easily weighed more than a 100kg and was 6ft for sure which is extremely tall for a woman. She slapped me and threw her weight in it. I would have fell if my back was not facing the wall. I felt a jolt going through entirety of my body

Many such experiences in school and life at home. Mother isn't much different. I don't think she wanted kids. But that's a story for another day

Regardless I am very grateful for the set of people I have now in my life. Still can't believe I got so lucky. I love her so much because she is the best. I can't stop smiling when I see her in my notifications, although she is sometimes very hard on herself but is very kind to people around her. She is just too awesome!!!

I was(still) in a really rough phase and I tried everything in my power to fix it. Did Vipassana, workout, journalling, alcohol and it didn't change anything much. Attempted stupid stuff which I wouldn't mention. Until I met her I realised all I needed was a deep human connection, a bit of kindness, a place where I could feel my emotions and actually express them without any bs filter. No superficial bs

Even though I am still going through it and she has no idea about it, she WILL NEVER REALIZE what she did for me. Maybe one day I could go tell her in detail why I love and appreciate her so much. She is a godsend for me

I know di you don't like relying on othes and have faced fair share of trauma in your life but you are the most awesome person I know. I hope one day I could tell you "why" you are so important to me and how you literally saved me. Life became bearable because of you, I love you so much di. I know things change, life happens and with time idk whether we will be that connected in future but I will always love you and would never forget what you did for me without even realising. You are the best thing that happened to me after my little sister was born. I love you didi

Always <3