Never even had a female friend

I have been a loner all my life never have had much friends only 2-3 in college school who don't talk to me know. I was studious worked hard to reach where Im and now I'm being sad. I feel broken nobody tried to know me, nobody keeps a check, my WhatsApp is dried only some official messages and that's it. I only talk with recruiters and loan people which I have blocked now. I never had even had a single female friend. Going to parks i see people are happy with their gfs, i just feel like killing myself but due to some commitments i cannot do self harm. Im a very shy and reserve person who is not able to open up very easily but i can definitely open quite well if someone trys to know me.

Im in Delhi was born here, almost everyone of my age is with someone, just wanted to vent out what was in my heart 🙏🏻. I don't know how much i go to crowded areas I become completely silent spectator and cannot communicate, i overthink a lot, and feel sad most of the times. People on reddit say s3x is easy and for some even having friends is difficult. I just don't know what to do and I'm a very emotional person on top of it, i just get hurt people who get into relationships cheat and here nobody even talks to me.