I need encouragement 😓

So the first photo is last February. Second is today. I had some narrow but deep ice pick scars and seeing them widen had just hurt my soul a bit. I’ve done probably 3 sessions at a 1.5 mm depth over the course of the year. Last one was 3 weeks ago. I will do another at a .5-1mm depth in a few weeks and continue on until I’m happy with my results. I’m having thoughts that I’ve messed things up and should’ve just never done anything :(

Lighting is not the same — I know im sorry