Religion and fear (vent)

I grew up with a Lutheran family and after a while i stopped practicing it. I believe that there are multiple gods throughout every religion and practice but i don’t worship just one. But recently I’ve been so scared that I’m going to hell for being lgbt (gay and trans), cutting and just my actions. I don’t even believe in hell but it’s such a paralyzing fear for me. I want to get a rosary because I’ve been told that could help along with going to the confessional. I don’t know what to believe in anymore.

I’m sorry if this isn’t the right sub but it’s the only one I feel welcome in.