I’m losing my daddy.

Hi everyone. I’m a nineteen year old female with two brothers. One is twenty one, and the other is seventeen. Just last year in February, my dad, who is 45, found out that he had stage four pancreatic cancer. Just the other night, we had to call the ambulance on him. He has a stroke and a heart attack all at the same time at home. I only have my dad. My mom died when I was five, and he’s been my sole guardian, besides my grandmother, his mom. They’ve put him in hospice care where they are making it their goal to comfort him as much as possible before he passes. They do not believe he has much longer, which hurts. We’re cremating my dad, and I think having his ashes close to me will make me feel better, however, I’m just still so lost. I never would have thought that I’d be nineteen without either one of my parents. I haven’t slept, or eaten much. My grandma and I have been staying at the hospital with him. Everything hurts and I’m trying to stay strong, I just don’t know what to do. I’m so scared.