My girlfriend doesn’t know who she is after a seizure
I have been dating my girlfriend for six months She has an epilepsy history from years ago but after treatment her seizures stopped and she stopped the medication with a neurologist approval. Duo to stressful life events and a very stressful job, she started having seizures again after two month since we started dating, it started from once a month, and she didn’t get treatment after they got back till she started having them daily, I “forced” her to go to emergency and they have got her medication treatment back. Her medication seems to be effective and she has a lot less seizures in the last two weeks her seizures caused her Todd’s paralysis and she couldn’t talk for a few hours. Her mental health has worsen and she started showing despair and saying really awful stuff about not wanting to exist because she hurts people with her actions all the time, she couldn’t deal with life anymore and I was the only thing keeping her sane (her depression and thoughts were due to multiple childhood traumas and triggers, she is very weak when it comes to stressful situations)
Two nights ago she has a seizure after a stupid fight we had about our “intimate relationship” After the fight she had a bad seizure in our bed and she woke up confused and disassociated, I didn’t think much about it because she usually is after a seizure and I asked her is she remembers we had a fight and she didn’t remember. I took me about an hour to realize that she had completely lost her memory, she didn’t know what her name was, what is her age, didn’t recognize the names of her family and friends, didn’t know were she worked and couldn’t recall anything about her life other than the fact that I’m her boyfriend and that she is at home. I told her I’m really worried. She was aware that she has lost her memory but refused to go to emergency. We agreed that she’ll sleep it off and if she is still the same the next morning then will see a doctor.
I was helping her recall who she was and she was and still is completely disassociated from the person she was before the seizure, she was shocked to learn about her history and started crying after learning about her behavior before the seizure, she seems to be in denial of who she is, her head hurts when she tries to remember stuff from her past and she talks thinks and acts exactly like me, I’m starting to loss it. She says that from what she remembers it is really possible that it could be due to her mental state, she says that she feels like a different person and can’t associate with her past, which is disturbing but also as she says”a good thing” because she hates what she learns about her past self. She sees her past self the way I used to see her. She is quite aware, she learns things about her past really fast and associate people from work with what she learned about them from me and from her chats with them, her logical thinking and intelligence make people at work not suspect a thing about her memory loss
She has always admired the way I do things and think about things, now she thinks acts and talks almost exactly like me
Imagine having a partner you deeply love, even though you might not have the best relationship with them, waking up one day and becoming a version of you, they talk like you, they think like you and they agree with nearly everything you say (we were almost complete opposites!) I’m going a little insane, please tell me it’s temporary and that I will get my girlfriend back, I have lost her, I miss our disagreements I miss our fights, I miss her😭❤️