Trouble with connecting to a positive future

Hey all

I am currently doing the Breaking The Habit of Being Yourself meditation. I'm up to incorporating the entire meditation but finding that I am struggling now with the latter part where we connect to our dream future self. I feel almost blocked with bringing all this to mind, letting myself get caught up emotionally with how it would feel and getting lost in that dream. Instead I feel clouded and confused exactly what it is I want or what is right for me.

I will add that prior to reading any of Joe's work I was trying to manifest things for stability for myself and kept getting rebuffed every time this didn't come through. I know now I was getting lost in matter and the 3D. I'm thinking that this may be holding me back a little with subtle feelings of doubt or not full belief that things will fully change or as much as I would like(?).

I wondered has anyone else struggled with this? Or has any advice for tapping into this better? I am thinking making a pinterest board with things on to inspire me could help?

Thanks :)