Overwhelmed and tired of feeling like I have to take care of everyone...

I'm (28, f) feeling very overwhelmed with life right now, and exhausted with the feeling that I have to take care of everyone else all the time, and not having anyone to help take care of me.

I work in an acute mental health setting within community behavioral health. My job literally involves taking care of other people. And I love my job, I do. I'm passionate about it, and I don't think it's bragging to say that I'm very good at it. But sometimes it can be really emotionally/mentally draining. I love the work itself, but the organization is a disaster, and it's really difficult to work within that. Clients can at times be inappropriate or abusive. Sometimes you hear things that just really hit home or get to you. And I'm good at setting boundaries, and I'm good at compartmentalizing, but still... I guess everyone has their limits, and right now, I'm just feeling very raw. I hate that the challenges of my job sometimes make me resent clients. I hate that it sometimes makes me bitter and hard-hearted. I try really hard not to let it, but I'm only human. It's just been really rough lately.

My brother was in a really bad motorcycle crash this weekend. He's going to be okay, but it's going to be a long road to recovery- 6-12 months, and his leg will never be the same again. Even though he's 26, he'll always be my baby brother, I'll always be protective of him. I just want to hold him close and keep him safe and be the person he talks to, like I was when he was younger. He's an adult though, he makes his own choices, has his own life and friends and girlfriend. I think I'm doing a good job at giving him space while also being there for him, if that makes sense. But it's hard. Our family makes it hard too. He and I both have complicated relationships with our parents, albeit in different ways. I feel like I'm having to play mediator between everyone, especially him and our mom. And I have my own frustrations with our mom and how she's handling things, but am trying to set those aside in order to prioritize his frustrations with her.

I'm also helping my parents move my grandmother who has Alzheimer's into a memory care facility next week. They both have a very challenging relationship with her, so I feel like I'm mediating there too, since I've always gotten along with her best. But she's not her anymore either, and I can't be mad at her for that, even when she's hurtful.

I'm also dealing with my own health and mental health problems. Those are pretty well managed right now, but with everything else I feel like I'm juggling, it feels like something is bound to drop.

I've just felt like I'm on the verge of tears or a mental breakdown for days now. Usually I'm a really easy crier, but right now, I can't even cry. I'm just exhausted - I feel like I could sleep for a month - and discouraged and lonely. And I feel like my feelings aren't valid right now, like I'm not allowed to feel them or put them at the forefront, because everyone else is more important.

I love pet names and endearments (favorites are sweetheart, baby, sweet girl/good girl/pretty girl/variations thereof).

I guess it would just be nice to hear that I'm doing a good job, or that it isn't fair that I feel like I have to take care of everyone. That my feelings are important. That I'm not going to feel alone forever? I don't really know what I'm asking for, but honestly, anything encouraging you have to say will mean the world to me right now.