Everyone was right, I was naive

HLF21 here, married to LLM41 for close to 2 years, 8 month old baby who I’m a SAHM to. Haven’t had sex in months, the frequency really dropped off when I got pregnant. Met him when I was 17, lost my virginity to him at 19. Things have never been great sexually, and I have always craved more love, affection, and of course sex from him. I didn’t know why I never received it. He said he was tired, bloated, depressed, and a million other excuses. He had me convinced it was my fault. I have spent countless hours trying not only to fix our sex lives but our relationship. I have tried everything I could think of. I trusted him blindly. I trusted him so much that I never even went through his phone until last night. Yep, you guessed it- secret porn addiction! He’s the last person on earth I would’ve thought to be doing this. I would’ve bet you 10 million dollars he was telling me the truth all of the times I asked him if he looks at porn and he said no. Turns out he has been our entire relationship!! And to really disgusting and offensive stuff. Hundreds if not thousands of screenshots of actual porn, AI porn, cartoon porn, half naked women, even fully clothed random women who I guess he just finds their face attractive. Chat rooms and live cams and twitch streams. Also he had a secret instagram account he kept from me for over a year. He told me he didn’t even have instagram. He looked up my friend and his old friend and his ex girlfriend! And the explore page is all half naked women of course. Man do I feel stupid! Everything makes so much sense now. It really really does. Looked at the timestamps on his screenshots and he was looking at these things right after taking care of our infant daughter. Right before I gave birth to her. In the middle of a couples dinner. We went on a Christmas walk as a family and right after he’s looking up lesbian Christmas porn? I’ve been begging him to f*ck me for so long. I’ve really embarrassed myself. Well apparently he didn’t know he had an addiction. Now that he got caught of course, he recognizes it, he’s so ashamed, he’s quitting cold turkey, he is so sorry, he’s motivated to be the partner he always should’ve been for not only me but also our daughter. I was sooooo stupid for so long. Any other women in the same situation? Go through his phone. He said he didn’t feel an ounce of guilt the entire time until now, that he didn’t think about it. He has lied to my face and didn’t feel an ounce of guilt. FML. Ruined my entire life at such a young age for this man.