It’s been 3 months

I just want to be healed already. I’m to the point where I’m not waking up dreading that I’m not with her anymore, but I still think about her throughout the day. Some days are just he’ll still. Like today. I want the pain to end, I’m tired of being obsessed over someone who doesn’t even care. I’m in therapy and is still don’t exactly KNOW how to heal. I don’t know. I wish I did. I wish I could just go on dates and hookup already. I feel like there are chains around my ankles, it feels like moving on is still so far off for me. And I hate it. I am so terrified that I will never meet my person. I am terrified that even if I do I will end up going through heartbreak again. I’ve always wanted to get married and I’m not sure I will ever get to be. I’m 28 and I feel so much pressure like it’s never going to happen, because im also definitely not going to settle just to be married. It’s so tough, I wish the pain would at least go away if nothing else.