The "I can't wait to tell him everything" feeling

I (20F) had a shitty day and usually I always looked forward to texting him whenever I returned home and yapped to him for hours. I feel ugly asf and just had a really shitty day and I can't yap to him anymore. He was my peace he was my home oh god I'm trying to move on with my everything but it's so hell it's such a hell