i was her fp. she broke my heart.

i (f) just got broken up with by my ex partner (f) who has bpd out of the blue. We had plans for vday and other plans months out.For context,I don’t have any pds, but I do have ocd. She told me I was her favorite person and that because of this she couldn’t function properly in her life. I empathize heavily, I’m just struggling to understand her mindset in all of this. This happened 10ish days ago.

In those ten days, I’ve been in hell. It’s made so much worse by the fact that I love and miss her, and our mutual friend tells me she feels the same way. But she insists she needs to be alone to me, and that she can’t give me what I want (I never said that). It’s not healthy for me to keep hanging on, but I’m scared that if it’s a split she’s going through, she might come back. And I would take her back in a heartbeat because I love her and I’m willing to forgive/ reconcile. She’s not the only person w bpd in my life and I’ve seen these patterns play out.

I guess I’m just looking for some advice on what to do here— on what to do, how to cope, how to move on, or whatever you guys think I need to hear rn. Added layer is that it’s my first wlw breakup so if there’s any queer baddies in here, lmk. If you made it this far, thanks for reading.