feeling like a failure in college

TLDR: I haven’t been doing the best my first semester of college, is this normal?

This is kind of a rant, so I’m not sure it will make sense, but here it goes. In high school I was like the poster “good” kid. I was valedictorian, had a 4.0 gpa, was voted most likely to succeed, was president and vice president of many clubs, never drank or partied etc. Now I’m in my first semester of college and feel like the complete opposite. I have good grades in my classes (all a’s except for one b) but i skip class all the time, i drink (not much but on occasion), i vape, and i’ve gone to some frat parties and the local club. Some days I’m so depressed it’s hard to get out of bed and whenever i sit down and try to study it takes an act of god to actually do it. I’m tired all the time but I can’t fall asleep at night, I’m binge eating all the time, and it’s like all the worst parts of myself have come up from the surface. Everyone has always expected so much from my and I’ve been pressured my entire life to make the best grades and not do stupid stuff like partying and drinking, and now I feel like I’m failing everyone. My family comments on it sometimes (for example we were talking at dinner the another night about making stupid decisions and someone made the comment that stupid decisions is my middle name) and I’m so hard on myself because I know I can do and be better. I know that it’s about responsibility and holding yourself accountable, which is part of why I feel like such a a failure, but at the same time I don’t want to be like this. I know this isn’t who I am. I struggle with severe anxiety (and depression as of lately), I’m 99% sure I have ADHD (this has not been diagnosed so I’m not saying I do have it, I just really feel like I do), and I have a RAGING eating disorder and body issues. These aren’t excuses and I know it’s all about applying myself and being responsible, but I also know mental health is a big factor in not only academic performance but also everyday life, and mine is at an all time low right now. I have just always been put on such a pedestal and not being able to live up to the expectations of others and myself is killing me. I feel like I went from being the perfect kid in high school to the biggest screw up in college. This is not a pity post or me feeling sorry for myself because I promise you, I am hard enough on myself for about 1000 people. I’m just wondering if this is normal, and if so how do you fix it? Will not doing the best my first semester of college ruin my future not only in undergrad but also when applying to doctorate programs? Thanks to those of you who read all of this, I really appreciate you.

Update: My parents are amazing and extremely supportive in almost all aspects of my life. They just want the best for me and have always said I have a lot of potential. They don’t judge me a lot for the things I do, just make comments from time to time which really gets to me because I’m so in my head about it already. I just wanted to clarify that I don’t think my parents are at all the issue and I honestly don’t know where I’d be without them.