Should I f/22 get an abortion (dad is m/22)

I can't talk to anyone about this so I need some immediate help. I come from a very republican and reserved family, they always said abortion was murder and all that stuff that people usually say. I grew up believing that, but as I got older and formed my own opinions i understood more about the world and I am pro choice. However, I would personally never get an abortion for myself. I've always wanted to be a mother and I've always been so excited to be one. Fast forward I met a guy from Texas while traveling Europe over the summer last year. We hit it off, called everyday and at the end of November I went to visit him in Japan, he lives in Okinawa he's there for the military. After talking on the phone everyday for all those months, he asked me to be his girlfriend and everything was great. We did have sex, and we didn't use a condom and I know it sounds immature but the pull out method has always worked for me. I told him to pull out every time and he did. One time though, he didn't and he just did it inside of me. I asked him why he did that and he said he didn't know. I guess I just figured it was in the moment and it happens. I asked him if we could get a plan b and he told me no. Keep in mind I don't have a card that works in Japan, I had no way to buy one myself which looking back I know I should have had a way to pay for myself in case something went wrong. I begged him for the rest of the trip to get one and he always said later, or he forgot, or why and he's ready to be a dad. I took one when I got home, but it was too late. i recently found out im almost 7 weeks pregnant. I really love this man, I don't know him enough though and I'm so scared. I don't have any money, and I'm a flight attendant so that's a really hard job to have pregnant or with a baby. He knows, he said he will take care of me but something just feels really off, and he seems to show his angry side more and more everyday. I would usually never even consider abortion for myself, and I feel like I would regret it if I do go through with it, but I don't know what to do. He also doesn't get out of the military until April 2026, so i would have to go through the pregnancy alone or be isolated in Japan with a my first baby. I feel guilty because I've always wanted to be a mother, but not in these circumstances. I feel like my life will be over if I have a baby I don't want or am ready for, but it will also be over if I get an abortion I don't think I could live with it. Either way i feel like my life is over, I'm having a lot of thoughts of hurting myself and I know that it's the hormones but I'm not sure what to do. I haven't told any friends or family, I don't feel like I can. Has anybody had a similar situation or any advice? I don't know how I can be a single mom if things don't work out with don't work out with him. He tells me he wants to marry me as soon as possible, he told me he loves me and I just need to trust him. We do fight a lot, but it's because we haven't been able to even see each other since I found out I was pregnant. He told me he won't just leave me. Sometimes I think about us becoming a happy family and I feel like it could work out, but I still get scared because I think he has some real anger issues to work on, and I don't want my child to grow up with an angry father. I always promised myself I would not find an angry man. Some days he's so sweet to me and I think to myself this is all I ever wanted and I feel so happy but other days he can break me down so bad. I'm so torn on what to do. Also cherry on top, my family is Mormon. If they found out I had sex let alone considered an abortion, everything would be ruined forever.

Edit: I am well aware that my choice to not use a condom or be on birth control is completely my fault and it could have been prevented. Going forward, I don't even want to have sex until I'm married. If I do decide to though, I will have two forms of birth control going forward.

Also, I have considered adoption. I don't care if it takes a toll on my body or ruins it or hurts me, this isn't about me anymore this is about a potential life. However, I looked into it and both parents have to agree to the adoption. I think it's obvious that he would not sign any papers for that.

A lot of comments are also saying that I'm not ready. While yes I agree that I am not financially stable or married and I'm very scared, I have known since a young age that I would be a damn good mom and love my child unconditionally. Maternal instincts have always come very natural to me and I have never doubted that I would risk everything to be a great mom. I just don't want this child to grow up with a father that scares both of us. It just doesn't seem fair.

Also I know it sounds like I didn't know him, I know now that I didn't but it just felt really real at first. We met in Europe and we didn't have sex in Europe, we had sex once I became his girlfriend in Japan. Before I came to Japan for all those months we talked on the phone every single day for at least an hour, I really felt like I knew him before I even went to Japan. I felt love for him before the plane even landed in Okinawa.