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My masculine features look wrong on me. It's like I don't look like a girl but what I see is completely alien. My face is just wrong, it doesn't feel or look male or female to me. Is this genuinely the fault of my transition or is it because I'm autistic and have no real sense of self? When does it stop feeling like this?

Is this delusion?

I feel like I don't look like a human, let alone male. Something is just throwing me off